I've been at my job for nearly two months now. It's been a nice opportunity for me, it helps grow my resume, I've met new people and am making more a generous amount of money here. The sales world is a different world. It's very high risk, high reward. You have the opportunity to advance quickly, or to be fired quickly, so naturally, there's a lot of turnover. While I have no fear of losing my job, I know that a couple of bad months, things can turn very quickly. Overall, it's a good expierence.
However, it is monoutonous.
At my last job, there was always something different. Each day provided a new, often unique opportunity. I got to meet a ton of people from a variety of places and backgrounds, and dive head long into interesting and exciting subjects. Here, not so. I talk to different people every day, but only on the phone. There's no real connection. I talk to over a hundred people, but all I'm doing is trying to get them to upgrade something that they may or may not want to do. It's true, I love to talk, but my personality is not fit for this. That's why a question asked me by my cousin yesterday bothered me so much.
"So, you think this will be a good career for you then?"
Whoa. The thought that I could be doing this long term had never entered my mind. But why not? After all, I am a 23 year old guy that has yet to finish his degree, and can never seem to make up his mind on what it is exactly that I want to pursue. By this point, most people would be having jobs and careers, so my cousins question was natural. However, am I supposed to settle just because I made some mistakes in college, than setbecks that piled on, on top of that? I would love to go back to the fall of my sophmore year at Mizzou and change the way I thought about academics and focus on school more, but I can't. All of us have made mistakes, but not a one of us can go back and change them. We have to make the best of it and learn from them so we don't repeat the same sort of thing down the road.
Still, I'm not going to settle for this. Look at the things I love: Music, history, sports, etc. With all of them, there's something new. Something different everyday to look forward to. I love working with all sorts of people, but not talking to them on the phone, when in reality, they probably don't want to be talking to me. So yeah, while the job is OK for now, I'm getting paid well and being able to get some quality work expeirence, this isn't going to be where I stop. It can't be. I believe God gave me the gifts that he did to use, not to sit on. All this job is doing is bridging the gap to where I'm going next. You bet I plan on finishing school, I just have to find exactly what my niche is, that best utilizes my gifts, and that is also benefical to other people.
So, what I'm saying is, this is just one more stop on the path. I'm eager to find and learn what God's long term plan for me is, I just haven't found it yet. I do know that I can't wait to get started on it, though. I've wondered around long enough. It's time to start listening and learning, and eventually, doing.
