A lot's happened since the last time I attempted to write one of these. I've went back to school, started a new job, and left a perfectly good idea for a blog post on the top 100 country songs of all time unfinished. But this post is about something different entirely. It's about the emotions I felt Saturday night upon hearing the news Stan Musial died.
I mentioned on Twitter that I nothing I could say would do Stan "The Man" justice, yet stupidly I went ahead and tried. Being eloquent with music is more my thing. Words? Not so much. I felt a sadness. Not overwhelming because after all, I didn't know Stan Musial. I read George Vecsey's biography of Musial last winter and certainly after reading that, I felt like I knew more about Stan and what he stood for than I ever did before. Still, with his family and friends feeling true sadness and pain, it would be unfair for me to pretend to feel that same kind of emotion.
Nevertheless, there was that lingering feeling of sadness all night. I was with my friends and we watched other things. The St. Louis Blues scored six goals Saturday night, perhaps a coincidental honor to Musial's number 6. Butler and Gonzaga played a fantastic college basketball game, and that sparked great debate about collegiate coaching jobs and the top basketball programs of all time. Still, my mind would go back to Musial every now and then. I was fully aware of what he meant to St. Louis. He is universally regarded as the best player of all time on St. Louis's most beloved team. He took time to connect with people. He was admired by fans everywhere...even Cubs fans. I never had the honor of seeing Stan play, but the respect I carry for him as a Cardinals fan is enormous. The only time I ever saw him in St. Louis was on opening day of 2012 and he rode in around the park to a standing ovation. I had goose bumps and it was something I'll most definitely never forget.
The thing that stuck with me the most from Saturday night, however, was a conversation I had with my Grandpa. He's a huge Cardinals fan, and a lover of the game, not to mention he was a heck of a player in his day. So good, he was invited to try out with the New York Yankees. He lived next to Tom Greenwade, the same scout who signed Mickey Mantle...baseball runs deep in his veins. He's also someone I know who had the privilege of seeing Musial play live. So, when I heard the news, I called him. When he got on the line, he told me he had just heard the news and quickly begin to tell a few stories about what it was like to actually see him play. Just sitting here thinking about that is crazy. He actually got to see him play
live and in person. Stan Musial. That's the magnificent thing about baseball. It's generational. It's a passion and love passed down through the generations. I can't exactly find the words, but it's one of the coolest things America has, this connection that baseball gives people across generations. I know I tend to romanticize things, but how can you not with baseball? Anyway, he told me about his uncle taking him up to Sportsman park to see the Cardinals for the first time, a story I've heard before. While he was there, he got the great Enos Slaughter's autograph. But, what stuck with him the most, was Musial. He hit a home run that day (against the Pittsburgh Pirates). In my Grandpa's mind, Musial didn't make an out that day, and of course, knowing Stan's ridiculous numbers, that could very well be true. My grandpa continued to ramble, almost like he was an awe-struck kid again, telling me these different stories about Musial. And of course, he made sure to tell me that what made him special, was how he felt like he was just "one of us". A regular guy. A good guy. One filled with a kind of gentleness and human decency that's rare to see among a superstars today. Just go read all the different tributes to him. They're filled with stories about him doing all of these things off the field and going out of his way to sign an autograph or play his harmonica or just generally make someones day...or more likely year.
As I got off the phone, I really felt sad...really sad, for a moment. I was sad in part because I could hear the emotion in my Grandpas voice. Stan was his favorite player. There's even a bat in the family that is claimed to have been used by Musial in the minors. But also, I knew a huge part of what it means to be a Cardinals fan had just passed away. The one person who commanded more reverence and respect than any who's ever put on that hallowed uniform of the birds on the bat. Again, I can't exactly find the words, but Stan was more than a great player, and even more than a great guy. He WAS the St. Louis Cardinals. You see, this, more than any reason, is why I was upset to see Albert Pujols go to Anaheim. I so desperately want my generation to have that kind of player. I would love to see a guy like David Freese, although he could probably never reach the bar Stan set, stay healthy and spend a whole, successful career in St. Louis. So, I most definitely felt sadness upon hearing the news. My heart went out to his family. My heart went out to the Cardinals fans who had a stronger connection than I, like my grandfather. I was sad because Cardinal Nation had lost it's icon. But, I was also sad for the way the game is today. There aren't any like Stan Musial out there anymore, or at least it feels that way. There are still and will continue to be great players. Some might surpass him, and many won't, but the connection between a city and a player just feels like it doesn't exist as strongly anymore. That was certainly proven when Pujols bolted for the sunny beaches of California. Baseball fans deserve better...especially St. Louis fans, where baseball is held in the highest regard, and maybe in higher regard than any city America. Losing Stan just underscored how important he was to St. Louis. There won't ever be another like him. Not even close.
If you want a fitting tribute to "The Man" that gives you both the amazingness of his on field stats, and the heartwarming tales of his off-field personality, there are plenty out there and their good. Posnanski, Miklasz and plenty others have done fantastic work. Once again, I know I didn't do him justice. I didn't even begin to delve into his stats....they're too great and numerous for me to get into. If you want to be blown away, take a look at Musial's baseball reference page. Stan Musial is the greatest Cardinal of them all, so much so that he became the Cardinals and represented what it meant to be a Cardinal. Even someone like me, a couple generations removed from his playing days, grew up feeling the utmost respect and admiration for the retired ball player who made hitting look so easy, someone said he could hit .300 with a fountain pen. So, yes, I'm sad. My thoughts and prayers are with the Musial family. What do you bet that as St. Peter was welcoming Stan through those pearly gates that Stan stopped, mimicked his old peek-a-boo batting stance and gave Peter a "Whaddya say, whaddya say."? Maybe even an autograph too.